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Heal Me

A few weeks ago, I fell on a train to Long Island. And unbeknownst to myself, as I picked myself up and dusted myself off, I had injured my knee. As the day progressed, however, that awareness, indeed, seeped into my consciousness, and when I finally got home that night, it was all about ice, elevation, and the intention of fast healing. An internal dialog began: To see a doctor or not see one? To sub out my classes or grin and bare it? To go into work, or work from home? You know. All the practical things that were necessary and time sensitive.

Then… The Pause…

What is being asked of me? What truly wants to be healed? I reflected on how I injured my knee. I was angry. I acted impulsively because of that anger, which led to the fall. I have been dancing with anger’s grip for quite some time. First I tried to ignore it… then transcend it… now, it’s all about its transformation. Can I tap into its beauty, and power, and great wisdom? Can Anger Heal Me?

The knee. What is she telling me? In the priestess tradition, the knees are associated with humility. “Bless my knees that I may remember humbleness.” The shadow of this involves the inflated ego and arrogance. Light Bulb! The union of anger and arrogance at play … injury…of body, mind and heart.

The Mother Archetype. We are currently in the archetype of the Mother; Sun in Cancer. And I feel her calling me to nourish… to hold… to heal. Deep Healing. The knee and the shadow masculine pulse of anger and arrogance that permeates through me.

Her Mantra is, “I Feel.” And so, in this time of Cancer, I will ask myself, everyday, as part of my Sadhana practice, What am I Feeling? Nothing is off the table. My heart can hold it all, transform it, and empower me to ask myself, again, the next day, and the next, and the next….

“The Mother Doesn’t Reject Anything.” Sianna Sherman